on hold...

so, in case anyone was wondering, i have not planned a whole wedding without blogging about it, nor have i called the whole thing off; i am simply postponing it. put quite simply, finances are getting in my way! i can't justify planning a wedding right now when i have no way of paying for it and i am completely dependent on parents and credit cards to cover the costs. the way i look at it, neither of us are going anywhere, so i have some time. at least a little bit. i still want to get married in june 2010. i would love to keep that time of year. hopefully, i can find myself a teaching job by then and we will know that our amount of money coming in will increase, so i can get back to planning. plus, i only have 2 more car payments to make and our mortgage is going down, so it will FEEL like we have more $ coming in, even if we don't. as far as other matters go, i am still working to fit into my dress! i tried it on last week and it seems to fit a tiny bit better, but it by no means fits. i was doing well and running a lot, but my ipod broke last week and i hadn't run until today. i met vivian at rice and we did almost 3 miles. it was actually fun to have a running buddy! i have been going on job interviews and i think i have a problem in that i cannot be anyone but myself. i am not good at bullshitting and telling people what they want to hear. i need to work on that if i ever want anyone to see me as hire-able, i guess. i am now posting my nonsense on twitter, if anyone cares. not likely, though. until later...